When Life is About Surviving

Since our miscarriage last fall, life has been a roller coaster of emotions.  For months, we prayed and we cried to the Lord.  We sought His comfort together and alone.  Even our children found ways to deal with our loss.  After a time of grieving, we prayed about our future.  We sought the Lord individually about pursuing another child.  As the month rolled in that our fourth child was to be due, we found out that we were expecting again, so God turned our mourning into gladness.  And then, within five weeks, the trials of severe morning sickness robbed us of our joy.  When nothing in the natural part of life comforts you, you can certainly count your life as one that is just surviving.  I had to press through some miserable days.  My relationship with my Saviour was even a bit bitter, but God knew it would be and that was enough for me.