To grow in Christ means change needs to occur and some old roots of sinful thinking need to be uprooted and thrown into fire...a large bonfire..one that will burn away, forever, thoughts that have so strangled life and faith and produced nothing worthy, nothing life-giving or life-sustaining.
God is loving and patient and gentle when handling our ensnared souls. As I read Isaiah 51, I fall deeper in love with Him and He reminds me of who He is and who He is for...and that He is "our God." With this new trust, I walk out again by faith in a new area.
He takes me back to the place of first believing the lie. He takes me back to grade school. Early thoughts of insecurity are vivid and I take a new way of thinking to this past place. In hindsight, God will heal my thinking. In hindsight, I believed worth came from the praise of people. In hindsight, I believed pretty or smart or well-dressed meant importance and that plain, unintelligent, and poor meant disgrace or lower life. And so, I choose a path of finding worth outside of God which meant a life of striving, a life of false perfection, a life with no real peace.
The fruits of such thinking led to rebellion against my God and parents, friendship with those who do not know God, immodesty instead of femininity, and more than I can list.
The layer God is working on in my life is in the area of immodesty. He is faithful to expose the lie, while also showing the truth. The truth about modesty must first be taught through the heart and not the hemline. Femininity is His design and pride is at the core of immodesty. When I have a heart to please God, I will not also desire to attract others opinions. His opinion satisfies me and modesty makes me feel feminine and beautiful.
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